Came across sy blog...den went to see this blog link...
http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com

I cried like one baby..
My tears juz keep flowing when i read her post....
I felt sad for her...
And most impt.. i felt soo guilty of myself...
I am way better off ..and why am i here sighin and wat like an idiot...
She lost her love one..
She cant hear ..see and feel him anymore...
yet i still can.. yet i still hv my royals and family...
WAt wid me to sigh and all...
I am blissed already..and i should be satisfied..
My loneliness is nth compared to her....

Roar.. i felt guilty and shameful of myself...
sometimes i should be cool ..
I should not be sooo weak!!

I wont feel down anymore...
I still hv my loved ones all wid me..
ANd i will cherish watever i have...

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Labels: Is it gonna be tt bad

Hmm..feelin real down lately after i hv chose my time table and knowin nxt wk is the orientation and i am goin alone..SOb!! haizz...Is like i realli dun wish to be alone!!! I tot i will be lookin forward to start sch...but NO!! i dun wan..and i dun wan more after hearin frm xian tt in uni is actually hard to make friends! Wat if i hv no friends?? Wat if i hv no study partners?? Wat if i cant cope?? Haiz sch hv not start and i am stress... I realli feel damn lost nw... duno how to explain!!


Like zi and sy said still can meet de..but is like how often?! everyone will be bz studyin..all study so far away..somemore zi and xian in hostel!! Happy for u all and xian dun need feel sad tt u leave me alone..coz going which uni is our own choice!! I noe u wanted engineerin course!! JY wor =))) As for Kl... u can de la...why u nv call em? no news yet?? den wat ur plan?

I realli duno how am i goin to survive..I am actually the anti social type..HAiz..Like xian say...juz make friends wid those sit beside u in the lt..?!!! when i heard i was like WAT?!! Haiz.. How can? i mean this dun determine she is the one to be my friend!So b4 i enter lt i muz look carefully who i sit wid!! SOB!! Haiz.. soo stress... I juz hope orientation will be fine!Even if made friends..they may not hv the same time table wid me le..SOB!!! wat a system!! cant change after we cfm..the deadline hv passed la...ARghh..why not wait till after orientation rite? STUPID!

Lonely Me... =((

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The hotel we went for buffet dinner =)) nICe?!

The lOve we shared is AMAZING



A small surprise near midnite.. BUT FAILED..


I can onli light up like tis..SOB!! WIND TOO STRONG!! sigh

SUN, 15 June >> Baby BirthdaY!!

His Ice cream cake!!!

Makin a wish? Hmm..muz be last wid me forever?! =PP

HAppY 19th babY!!!

I am the first to take photo wid him at his hse durin his bd!! WOohoo

Labels: HappY wid baby

Wkends are defintely realli well spent...especially baby had off since wed till sun!! REalli a surprise!! And Baby actually wake up early to send me to work ..bought mac breakfast and waiting for me downstair!! SOooo Sweet rite?!! All quarrels juz gone wid the wind =)))) Thz baby!! i appreciate!!

Fri went to watch movie and it was our 10 months...sooo fast rite??!! hehee looking forward to our 1 yr and many many more!! Incredible hulk is nice!! soo much nice movie!! =))) and baby got me a panda..small lil panda!! SOOO CUTE!! U all noe panda is rarely seen somehow..he went to alot of place den found!! hehhehehee...

Sat went to baby hse early den watched dvd... after which he pei me shopping see whether hv any clothes for wedding the nxt day!! Arghhhh walked and walked den finally i saw one black dress...wo seeing the price i juz go try..LOL!! It was nice..DEN SUDDENLY bee said it was 99 bucks!! I immediately OK LETS GO!! wth!! roar.. if onli my mum was there..=PPPP MUmmy is the best...ehheheee... Den i gif up..we went to eat...kena cheated 6 bucks coz we ordered dumplings but duno inside is beef!! ROAR!! *PUKE* hate it..ahahha...
Den pei baby to cut his hair... and den head to his hse agian...

SUn..Coz i hv to attend wedding..baby veri early come my hse...like 8.30 reach..LOL!!! NICE NICE!! at least get to see him..and time seems to fly..soon after i need to prepare and go for the wedding..baby send me off and he went back!! ROar the wedding is boring can!! Coz i dun talk!! juz smile...ARGHHH!!! Ambience is nice coz is orchid garden ma...but too hot...den alot of mosquito..it was onli till the nite den coolin!! tsk!!! i still prefer hotels!! and the service sucks to the core!! Arghh I AM JUZ BORED THERE!! Finally it ended and i reach home at 11.30p.m and nxt day still need to work lo..SOoo sian!!!


U see my last wk is soo happening...den i forget is last wk 19 june need plan my uni timetable...ROAR!! i today den go choose wat timetable i wan!! BUT like mostly full!! SOB!! i felt down and lonely and loss at tt time!! i called wei xian.. but she nv picked up..den i juz aiya anyhow choose ba...SINCE I MUZ CHOOSE!! soooo in the end i sat still need to study but in mornin onlI!! mon and fri no lessons!! but is like i guess my timetable nobody will choose de lo!! ARGHHHhhh SOBSOB!! and den i called weixian again to ask her..coz her sis in tt sch ma!! i realised there is no specific class..onli lectures!! DEN HOW TO MAKE FRIENDS>??? somemore i alone nw le...HAiz.... I realli like DUN WAN!! i am anti social de..except to all my royals!! HAIZ... how will i find such gd friends!! SOB!! I Dun wish to be alone!!! I am scared to study independently...SOB!! all of u are like in ntu..i am happy for u all..coz u all enter the course u wan!! If onli i like engineering..but u see..MY PHYSIC SUX... it need physics alot..I cant make it...I hv no choice!!! SOB!! If onli if onli...haiz.... I SOoo gonna miss all of u!! I sooo gonna be alone i guess!!!

SOB!! felt down since juz nw... haiz... duno how to say also... juz dun ffeel like study out of a sudden... =((((

Yesterday after work went to city hall to meet the royals ( Zy, wx, celia,mn,raz) to celebrate MY DADDIE KL birthday ..hehehee Went to gelare..omg the waffles is damn full can!!! ROAR... and i cant finish it... SOB too bad sy nv come..always i go she nv go de...=(((

It was all sooo happening..all of us are soo oN!! Laughter and all goes along as usual..COZ HV ME!! BLEAH =PPPP wahahaa.. After dinner went to esplanade..and we started our plan... We made live balloons for kl!! LOl.. PSPS i realli scared of balloons.. Kl juz pretend the hearty balloon is i make for u.... It was late..den after much discussion we decide to go bedok 85 ther to eat..WAHHAA to save time...CRAZY us actually book cab for 7 sitter...cost us 22.60 but worth it la.. =)))) Alot of pics are taken...

TO KL ... Heyyy Nt all post sweet lo..here come the sad part le....

I was happy tt finally i gt to go out wid the royals and it had been a long time...Den den..I DUNO WHY my bf hv to show me sad and emo attitude coz i went home late!!!zzzz I said sry and all so much time but still....Even after i reach home...I called him and i still get his shit!!! Nvmm.. i said sorry..BUT he actually say why i meet him i gets tired and wan go home early and yet wid friends i so late go home!! PPL HELP ME JUDGE!!! oh pls how often i go out wid u guys rite....And i always spend my every time wid hiM!!! Wth he hv to say like tis..IS juz a small matter and he can use tis to compare..I FIND HIM UNREASONABLE!! Dun u all agree?!!! It realli pissed me off..And after much explanation.. he still think he is like not in the wrong!! I TOTALLY hv no wrong la...ARGHHHhhh...

I was pissed till today...and he still can ask why i am treating him like tis... coz i shouted at him and all.. He is the one who make me pissed..so dun blame me..and he expect me to being pissed and still smile?!!! Ridiculous...ARGHhhh
I REALLI FEEL LIKE BANGING MYSELF TO WALL KIND!!! Why he cant understand..WHy he only think for himseld!! For him I already sacrificed alot..WHY MUZ HE BE LIKE TIS!!! WHY?!!!

Kl... SAd anot u tell me... SOB!!!

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The Wkends is definitely the most well spent one =)))

Fri after baby book out we went to ehub to watch movie!! KUNG FU PANDA!! it is sooo cute and funny can..I Love it!! We watch till abt 12 ..den my silly baby dun wish to go home. .. follow me back when he hv a straight bus home!! ANd When we reach the bus stop..he keep draggin here and there.. was full of energy like tt when i was abt to SlP!! whaha I noe i am pig!! BLEAH~! but i was tired..lol....

SAt.. in the late noon carrying loads of presents and all headed to baby hse first... den den wait for him to bathe and all...we headed to ws to rent dvd.. and den to my hse again coz i forget to bring things.. hahhaa..AFTER tt we went to changi village hotel for buffet! i long reserved table for 2!~ The food was nice.. and most impt baby is satisfied!! Both of us eat till realli bloated!!!AFter which I gave baby a surprise at 12 midnite..THough itm failed i beleive baby noe my effort... and we spent the whole nite tgt ..wahhaaa MY Baby love the presents i prepared!! hehehe..i am happy abt tt..

It was baby 19th birthday yesterday!! And i am glad to be able to spend tis special day wid him!! heee it cost me a bomb to plan and prepare for his birthday!! wahaa...After tt go his hse.. WE went to buy cake early in the morning...coz baby hv a habit..every yr he hv to wear new clothes and take a photo wid his birthday cake!! haha.. AND I AM THE FIRST TO TAKE photot WID HIM DURING HIS BD!! hehee i am proud and happy!! Frm nw on every bd i will spend wid him =))))

THe wkends seem soo long to me..and i am damn happy tt i can really spend great times wid baby!! I noe he is the only one tt can make me happy inside and out...even if he dun do anything!! juz seeing him i am happy le =))!!

I LOVE U DEAR!!!


Photos will be uploaded later.. =)))

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This ill temper I have is making me mad
I blow up and I don’t know why
I wish for just a moment I could handle my anger right
I wish for just a moment I could love you right
I wish my attitude would just go away
I wish my anger would stay at bay
I love you deep down inside I wish you would see
That you’re the only prince for me x3

The anger I have deep in side
Comes out when I least expect it
This anger I have in me should just go away
This anger I have is an annoyance
This anger I have has messed everything
This anger I have is stupid

Anger you have messed up my life
Anger you have destroyed who I am inside and out
Anger you are the devil
Anger you are all that is bad
This anger I have in me has made me fight
A fight that was not worth it

Anger you made me hit the wrong person
Anger you made me do the wrong things
Anger you are the feeling that I would never miss
Anger you have caused me so much sorrow
Anger you have caused nothing but grief.
Anger just go away


I juz lost my temper yesterday.. the first time i ever flared sooo big!!
I noe i am in the wrong in the first place..but is all past..
why cant u let it go?!
I am juz sooo tired mentally, emotionally and physically tt i cant control
to feel frustrated easily!

But all this while i hv been tolerating and giving in...
I hv been the one giving u more wholeheartedly!!
Why cant u be like a man?! WHY?!!

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Roar.. i hv nth much to post abt.....
All along hv been bz workin.... Nth special...
NXt wk nxt wk..BABEE 19th!!! whaa.. lookin forward....

Labels: We are meant tgt

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